Its unfair. West, 19, disappeared on a foggy San Francisco morning, around 6:45 a.m. to 7 a.m. Wednesday, Sept. 30 on the Golden Gate Bridge. I warned her of the possible dangers of the physical response to discontinuance, not thinking of her emotional well being. Some die instantly from internal injuries, while others . I feel fortunate and very grateful that so many individuals take their time and devote energy to sharing what they have experienced in their lives-it is so difficult for most people to understand in its wholeness-the value of life ..the science of every day living and the extreme depth and mystery and solstice to human beings, but one way to start understanding why people: innocents commit suicide is to acknowlege the exact factors of why a healthy person would just turn off the switch to existence. The West family has also upped its reward for her return to $25,000. You definitely are not alone, and it does often feel good to be honest about suicidal thoughts to speak what many people consider to be the unspeakable. Try convincing someone like me that life is worth it. It is believed that she had moved out of the dorms into an apartment with some friends near campus. I am suicidal have been for the past week. But things went wrong for Dusty as he climbed the rails to attempt the feat. But what if you dont want help? "We know that there was a lot of pedestrian, car and bicycle traffic on the Golden Gate Bridge the morning Sydney disappeared. Those two have shown some effectiveness at reducing suicidal ideation and behavior. But what about people like me? Kevin Briggs. Thanks again for your thoughtful comment. My reason to live is so I dont hurt people who care but what if you have no one who cares there was a time I had no one it was only my stupidity that got the hospital aware of my attempt. "Together we will find Sydney and bring her home," her mother said. Andrew has written for The Atlantic, Vice, SF Weekly, the San Francisco Chronicle, McSweeney's, The Bold Italic, Drowned in Sound and many other places. I feel stuck between a rock and a hard place. Car plunges off California elevated highway, 3 people killed. And for most of those whose lives were saved, life goes on for many more years to come. I am literally living day by day and full of guilt, regret and anger. 10 Reasons Teens Avoid Telling Parents about Suicidal Thoughts. Leads continue to come in, her parents said. This is perhaps the best argument for preventing suicide. Her disappearance was every parents worst nightmare. Im sorry to hear about all the pain youve been through. Had medical intervention on the second. Her family is not giving up hope that she is still alive and remains determined to find her. Sydney Harbour Bridge has a suicide prevention barrier. A jump off the Golden Gate Bridge takes around four seconds, during which a person will reach a speed of 80 mph before smashing into the water's surface like concrete. So in a couple days with no vehicle no money and no job, Im just supposed to trudge on, because life is precious or whatever other placating device people Banty about? This is a terribly hard process, and I hope that youre able to get help and support from others. I love to see that in the Comments section; I find it beautiful when people can connect in this way and, even more, when someone can tell another person what they havent believed for themselves. We interviewed our tech expert, Jaime Vazquez, to learn more about accessible smart home devices. The Pittsburg Sun-Telegraph on May 2, 1948. But he didnt and will never know that what he had actually solved only his own problem- feeling/depression. I wonder if you might benefit from talking with like-minded folks at ChronicSuicideSupport.com. Comments RSS Feed, My name is Denis and I live in England I am still recovering at the moment on 22nd of April 2020 I attempted to end my life I jumped off a 5 story carpark and survived I broke my left leg in 3 places and my right ankle in 6 places and my back in 2 places but I am lucky because I am recovering well and I can walk .people say its a mircle but I feel gulty because no one knew about the thoughts I was having for years because I did not tell any one to the outside world I was the life and soul of the party .I feel ashamed that now every one is worried about me and that is not what I wanted. After all, they were intent on dying. Woke up yesterday and realized I needed to make another pilgrimage before the series begins. When I arrived at the #FindSydneyWest vigil in Pleasanton, I said whoever is singing has a beautiful voice. "Syd," as she liked to be called, was initially thought to have last been seen or heard from early the morning of September 30 in the Crissy Field area. A. In fact, the increase in suicides at other locations in Toronto did not make up for the dramatic decrease in suicides at the viaduct itself. 19-year-old Sydney West was last seen Sept. 30. It's not hard to kill yourself at the Golden Gate bridge. Dear Anthony, [feb.6.2019 @9.26am]. West, 20, grew up in Pleasanton, Calif. She was a star volleyball player at Foothill High School and loved singing at open mic nights. West may have been wearing dark leggings, blue Vans shoes and a teal sweatshirt at the time of her disappearance. I just read your post. I am dead broke, have exhausted both my savings and retirement stash, I am about to have my car repod and cant find a job. The decision collapsed Rhodes sister's claim that her brother was murdered as cameraman Guzman should have been in a boat to pull her brother out of the water. There are far more narcissistic dads and men than there are women and mothers. God Bless You. Despite having to raise two young children alone with barely a cent to her name, Lorraine refused many offers from news agencies to sell the film of her husbands demise. The Oscars will air on ABC and can be streamed on ABC.com and the ABC app as well as Hulu + Live TV, YouTube TV, AT&T TV or FuboTV. I am sure your little self felt am I not lovable enough but it was never about you, your mum was in pain and obviously thought you would be better off without her, but it is not a reflection on you, hard to accept as children are programmed to feel the centre of the world. Dressed in a blue sweatshirt, leggings and Vans slip-on sneakers,. Her family launched a website,findsydneywest.com, that they hope will remind the community Sydney is still missing. Its a really simple concept. Too, people who attempt suicide may receive the help they need afterwards. My failure as a person was responsible for my extreme step. The Suicide Deterrent System, also known as the Safety Net, is being constructed to keep people from jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge. I know that this surprises many people. In fact, Dusty told his friend to shoot from the bridge as it would be more dramatic, and besides, he would easily be able to swim to shore to a congratulatory, awestruck crowd of beach goers. And I got very drunk every time I drank after that, which was quite often. She replied, She probably figured she could fix you. This was the beginning of my recognition of the fact that I wasnt the horrible person I made myself out to be, in fact, my story is very much like a lot of alcoholics Ive met. My mother battled w depression I watched her battle hard all my life and still. Precious few people survive such a fall; the water about 200 feet below acts the same as concrete when a person lands on it at high speed. But then they are stopped from jumping. His father had died by suicide and even though I knew all of this, I couldnt see the forest through the trees. Your message here is a good one. Taking into account suicides that might have been missed by researchers, Dr. Seiden stated that 90% of people who tried to jump off the Golden Gate Bridge did not go on to die by suicide. I think it could be helpful to you. She was last seen around 6:45 am when she was dropped off by a rideshare driver. Life.church has some really good online sermons I highly suggest that. This site continues to distract me from my suicidal thoughts. Sydney Harbour Bridge, the Golden Gate lacks a suicide barrier . It certainly sounds like your friends antidepressants are not working. The details of your life will, of course, be different but we have our humanness in common. I hope you believe your words here, or at least are beginning to. Where Are They Now? And half of people who die by suicide had attempted suicide at least once previously. You cant will people to live. Obviously, I failed. SFGATE news editor Amy Graff contributed to this report. Maybe some of the posts on this site could be helpful to him? I am so glad my attempt did not end in my death. I think this message needs to be made more clear and put in ads, etc. Thanks for sharing, Anne. Required fields are marked *. If you havent already joined a support group for other suicide loss survivors, that might help you; such groups are available in person and online. If you really love someone, please open up to them, share your feelings and talk to someone, suicide will never be the solution to any problem but creating pain to your loved one. Sydneyhas not used her phone, social media or bank accounts since she disappeared. It gives me a good opportunity to dispel concerns that others may have, too. The instant regret of jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge did not result in instant mental health recovery once Hines survived. [This comment was edited to abide by the Comments Policy. Written forwww.speakingofsuicide.com. This is certainly true for me: narcissistic mother and sister. The longitude and latitude for the Bridge location is approximately: N 37 Degrees, 49 Minutes, 8.0 Seconds --- W 122 Degrees, 28 Minutes, 40.6 Seconds. My husband killed himself 6 weeks ago at home to put a closure on our marital problem. Perfectly so. 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She was said to be very close with her family. She was last seen in long, dark leggings, a teal hooded sweatshirt and slip-on Vans in a dark green and black print. I tried to help her, I really did Except I didnt. Your battle won matters. Except that my fiance was making me depressed because he wouldnt move in with me again like how we were living together before. As 6 months passes where we have not seen or heard fromSydney, it becomes increasingly painful, her parents, Jay and Kimberly West, said in a statement provided to SFGATE. Press question mark to learn the rest of the keyboard shortcuts. Sydney Kaitlyn West, 19, was last seen near the Golden Gate Bridge around 6:45 a.m. on September 30, 2020. Cameras on the Golden Gate Bridge recorded Sydney the morning of Sept. 30. Reports said West would often visit the bridge for runs, walks, and to take pictures. Praying for you. Her mother Kimberly West has said to a journalist The bridge was quite busy (that day). Confessed to my dad and got shipped to a hospital. :A Follow-up Study of Suicide Attempters fromthe Golden Gate Bridge.. God will come through for you but you have to make an attempt. Enter your email address to receive notifications by email of new posts. . Press J to jump to the feed. They're asking anyone "who may have been walking, biking, running, who commute over the bridge particularly Wednesday mornings at that time" to share information.